Search and Destroy

I am the world’s forgotten girl.

I'm a restless girl, a ticking bomb,

A street-walking insect with a heart full of qualms.

I went searching for myself in a world that won't hold

Just a runaway daughter of a nuclear mold.

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​The detonation and the timing of time,

I went out to destroy, but the wreckage was mine.

Absolute helplessness, watching myself break,

Holding back tears as the concrete shakes.

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​I feel the countdown in my jaw, in my teeth, in my knuckles,

A seismic current where the skeleton buckles.

Walking through smoke like a figure on fire,

Every step tightening the detonation wire.

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​And I search and destroy. I search and destroy.

Like a weapon of war that they used as a toy.

I search and destroy. I search and destroy.

Burning the channels that kept me small.

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​I'm the world's forgotten girl,

With forgotten dreams in a bruise-colored swirl.

Burying the radiation deep in my chest,

A firefight of sorrow eating holes in my vest.

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​Paint the whole world in the color of bruises.

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I am the weapon and I pick my uses.

I want to explode, let the panic ignite,

Implode all my grief in the dead of the night.

Honey, somebody save me, or detonate the wire

I'm searching to destroy, and I'm catching on fire.

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I was listening to Florence’s cover of search and destroy today. I got inspired and wrote this.