i don't know how to be

Mar 25, 2026

I don't know how to be.

What to do?

What should I do?

Can you tell me?

I'm drowning in the abyss—

The abyss of too many things.

I'm drowning, I'm drowning,

Sinking, sinking in the deep end.

I don't know how to be in this world,

Where everyone thinks their perspective is right, an unchangeable fact,

And the rest are just fools who don't know

The way of life.

I, me, and myself: a trinity of fools.

We don't play by the rules;

we just drift,

static and formless in a world of endless pools.

Look—my failures are flickering on a blue screen.

A public crash. A system error.

My failures have gone viral.

A viral broadcast of a soul's collapse.

I am the laboratory rat, pinned to the glass,

forced to exist under the fluorescent gaze

of a world that only watches to see

how I break.

Cover pic from Pinterest

Golden undercurrent